Struggles with resentments

In recent weeks I have discovered myself having GOD work in my life with issues of resentment.



A while back, I was convicted to work on forgiveness in my life. This was dealing with situations where I felt I had been wronged and harmed. Although I still have work to do in this area I know that I have made great strides.



Then in the midst of giving myself a pat on the back for this progress...



GOD brought to my attention another area of resentment and forgiveness that HE wants me to deal with.



There are certain socio/economical groups that are intentionally left without services that other groups are able to receive. For the "poor" social services are available to provide things like housing assistance, medical care, and other financial assistance. Then there are the "rich" who are able to afford services like medical care, housing, and credit for things they cannot immediately afford.



Then there is the "middle class". This economic group is not eligible for the social services that are there for the poor yet they do not have the financial ability to pay for all the stuff that they may need too. I find myself resentful that there are so many services to the "poor". What I find even more aggreviating is that it seems those who refuse to work, who have not worked, who burden the social system with demands for services are rewarded for their inability to do for themselves.

I actually have a heart for the poor and for the needs they have. I know that the social services have a place in our society. I have no problem with the services being used. However... and here is where I find myself with the resentment...

There are those people who not just use the system, but they abuse it. They don't just get the services they need at the time, but they will apply for multipole services and GET THEM!

There was a program in our community called homeless prevention... it was a great program. However the users got in and... funding stopped. Now instead of homeless prevention, the program only pays for actual homelessness. Instead of it being a program that covered even the "moderate" income families, it is now for poverty or below levels now.

So frustrating!

Bad behavior rewarded....

Why?

Choices

This morning I have been contemplating choices~

Not just those big deal choices like where you'll work, who you'll marry~ but some of the little choices we make, more often than not without much thought.

From the moment we wake up in the morning, we are making choices. We chose to open our eyes and climb out of bed, or smack the snooze button and sleep a little longer. We chose to start out the day with prayer or with physical pleasures (coffee and a shower anyone?) And so goes the day, water or coffee? toast and jelly or oatmeal? brown pants or blue pants?

I was thinking how these little choices can impact our day...

Living life with intention...

I want to live my life with intention~ with GOD as the center of all I do. In every choice I make I want to ask myself, does this glorify GOD? Is this choice bringing me into a closer relationship with GOD? Is this choice what GOD wants me to do?

And with that... it is time for me to go and do the work of my LORD and live the life HE wants me to live!