Delightful Wednesday Morning Dear Readers!

The last few days have been less than fantastic... My beloved Uncle JJ is back in the hospital. He is really having a lot of problems and my heart grieves so much for him. I know that unless he gets the desire to live back again, it will not be long and he will be gone. Since my Aunt passed away he has steadily gone down hill. I think he wants to join her.

I miss him being around all the time. He has been here a few times since his stroke in June, but not the two or three times a week that he has been for the last 4 years. He is always so much fun to have around and do things with. The kids are missing him too.

My heart ached for Elizabeth the other day. When we told her that her Uncle JJ was in the hospital and that he had pneumonia, she teared up and said "When is he going to die?" I told her that he may not die and he might be home in just a few days. She did not believe me and reminded me that once Grandma got pneumonia she went to the hospital and died. So much lose in one little girls life~

I wish I could protect her, yet I know that this is something that might happen and I just have to love and support her through it.

Then on top of all that, I went and got the flu. I was so absolutely miserable! I wasn't sure I was going to be ok. But my two boys and Elizabeth rallied together to help me with Allen and make sure he and Elizabeth were taken care of. After not being able to eat for almost 36 hours, I was worried that I might need to give Allen formula. But a quick search told us as long as I wasn't dehydrated he would be ok. So while I was at my sickest I drank Sprite and then as I started feeling a little better I had some chicken broth and apple juice. Finally this morning I was able to eat again.

I am being cautious to eat light but make sure it is good for Allen stuff. 4 more months and I will be the happiest mommy on earth! That will mean I made it to 1 year with sole breastfeeding! I think back and remember being happy with just 6 weeks, then 8 weeks and every day after that was a blessing. What a BLESSING! 8 whole months already!

Along with all of this, my sweetie showed that change had not come... so I am back to just enjoying my life single. I am going to trust God that he knows His plans for me and I am going to ensure that I look for His guidance instead of the insanity of past behaviors I have done. I came to the conclusion that God has indeed given me the ability to pass on sinful behavior. I just need to look to Him when I am wondering if something is from Him or from Satan.

Being Single~ really it is not a bad thing. I will write more on this a little later... I had some insight on it while I was wrapped up in bed all day yesterday...

So that is a quick update on my life right now. I'll be back later to write more.