OK I am READY

for this damn year to be over!

Today I was in a cleaning mood and started pulling things out of cabinets, wiping down shelves and all that deep cleaning sort of things that need to be done fairly regulary in a kitchen. Then I hear the doorbell, dry my hands off, head to the door and it is my son...

He has come to tell me to call my brother RIGHT now... so I call. My beloved JJ is in the hospital. He was careflighted to the closest major hospital having suffered a stroke. I have lost so much this year, been through so many changes, I am really starting to wonder how much more I really can handle.

I need a break from all the stress and I don't see it happening anytime real soon...

Right now I am going to go sit on the sofa, curled up with my babies laying in my lap and try to just relax and enjoy what I do have...