Joshua is officially a college student~ not even 18 yet and my baby boy is in college. Well not the baby boy since Allen's arrival, but still he was my baby boy for 17 years and will remain so even when Allen is the one turning 18 and Joshua will be 36!
Katie begins high school in a new place this year. I won't be there for her first day of high school. My heart is hurting a little that I will be missing so many first for her in high school. But I know that I am making the best decision for my daughter that I can right at this moment. She has dealt with being in the middle of so much anger and animosity between her father and I. She deserves to have some peace.
Besides, her father has been lavishing her with so many opportunities that I could never give her. She has taken scuba lessons, surfing lessons, sail boating lessons, she has been crabbing, deep sea fishing... How totally exciting for her. I can't give her all of that. I can't give her the brand new bedroom suite from Pier One, the bedroom with french doors that open onto a view of the ocean, the delightful lime green and shocking pink bedding and linens for her master suite room... Her dad can and is giving her all these wonderful experiences.
So although the selfish part of me wants to keep fighting and bring my baby home, with me, her mother. I am going to do the right thing for my daughter and let her enjoy all that she is being given and just reassure her that Mom is here whenever she needs me to be.
MissElizabeth such a big girl and heading into second grade. It seems hard to believe. Second grade, almost 7 years old. Where oh where has the time gone? I know it will be in just a few days time that I will be writing the same about Allen.
Elizabeth has been declaring to anyone who would listen to her, her excitement at going back to school. She loves school so very much. She loves learning, she has 3 years (one year preschool) of perfect attendance, she just really loves school. She has been planning on writing her first story when going back to school. She already knows that her first story will be about what she did this summer. She is quite excited to tell people about her rather boring stay at home summer.
When we were walking the other day she grabbed my hand and said "Mommy, you know the best thing about this summer?" I asked her if it was playing with friends? No she responded. Having brother come home? No. Going to the river? No. Going to the park? No. She swings my arm and says "The best thing about this summer is you loved me." "Loved you?" I asked her quizzically. She tells me that I made sure that every day we did something together. She told me that she knows I love her because I had her help me cook, read her stories, and the list went on. We talked about all the things she thinks means I love her all the way down town.
I was a little overwhelmed that little everyday things that I do because I am "the mommy" made her feel so special. It reminded me just how very important it is that we take the time, no matter how busy we are, to spend a few minutes every day with our children letting them know by action, that we love them.
Back to School~ back into a regular routine a regular schedule. Of course along with school we have Girl Scouts and Soccer after school along with Awana's. My mother's group has our first meeting in a couple of weeks and we will make the schedule for getting the babies together for play dates and Mommy time. Then there is my Bible Study group while Elizabeth is in school and Allen's home teacher and my regular therapy sessions... and I need to keep up with friends??? It is going to be at a run school year! Haven't had one this busy in YEARS!
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