I am so EXCITED to just be ALIVE today! I am telling you this, to be sure, GOD is so AMAZING!

Philippians 4:19 And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus.

Today I spent the day with my children and a friend~ we had an amazing and delightful day together. I was so taken with how the day went and feel SO totally and completely blessed by the Lord!

Glory to God for ALL He does!

I had someone come into my life today who really brought me back to the heart of worship! I feel so much closer to the Lord than I have in AGES! My life is in the process of a complete change and I am sitting here tonight knowing that it is only by God's Grace and the conviction of certain people who have shared with me their faith and encouraged me.

When this person came into my life today, he was a person that I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that this person was touched by God and would be a blessing in my life. So the afternoon and evening was spent talking and playing and singing and just being together and enjoying life to the fullest!

So my new friend~ may I first tell you that in all my life I do not think I have met a more funny person. I spent the entire afternoon, even during serious talk laughing. This man's spirit is truly a HAPPY one. I am in awe of this person. I am looking forward to getting together again later this week for another afternoon like today.

God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus

I had a need met today that I didn't realize was even there. I have a home church, I have great friends who share with me their thoughts and beliefs, I have been really blessed by Christian friends. Yet something has been missing...

I did not know it, didn't have any idea there was a need that wasn't being met. Honestly life has been really good lately. We have a home, we have food, we have clothes...

The need...

To have someone touch my heart and open it up to receive all the blessings God really does have for me. My new friend pointed out that although I have made the "affirmation" video and I have dreams to have more in life~ My dreams for myself cannot compare to what God has dreamed for my life.

Ephesians 2:6-7

And God raised us up with Christ and seated us with him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus, in order that in the coming ages he might show the incomparable riches of his grace, expressed in his kindness to us in Christ Jesus

God is blessing my life~ I am so in awe of this thing that is happening in my life!

I have struggled so much with my faith, struggled with being a "new man" transformed because Christ is in my life. Yet as I sat with my friend today~ he told me that I was a new man in Christ. He explained to me that when I came to Christ 5 years ago, I came broken, hopeless, without any plans for a future. I was incarcerated in my own desolate life.

Yet in the five years since I came to Christ, my life has purpose. I have a hope and I have a future. I may not always make the best choices, I may sin, yet I recognize it and call it what it is. I make it right with God.

When my friend and I discussed the relationship I had with my sons father~ this relationship really devastated my life on so many levels. Yet as my friend pointed out~ what this man meant to hurt me God meant to use it for good. I have my son~ what a blessing! My son has been dedicated to God. He is going to be raised in the church, he is going to be a great man of God. Just as my daughter is already such an inspiring child of God.

My daughter rolls me out of bed on Sunday mornings when I don't want to roll out and makes me get it together to go to church. My little girl, who I set aside and dedicated to God, is bringing me to God every week.

As my friend and I talked, I told him a lot of the history between my son's father and I. I explained how I had tried several times to end the relationship and walk away and this man would reel me back in. As we sat in the grass, I used the laptop to pull up the emails between him and I to show my friend. Showed him where I really had TRIED. I just wasn't strong enough.

I also showed him the messages from my son's father that accused me of demonizing him, the messages from his wife saying the same thing. My new friend told me that I I was listening to the Holy Spirit speaking to me. This man was bound by Satan and Satan was using him to hurt me and my relationship with God.

It worked, I lacked the strength to turn away completely. Like Lot's wife, I was to in this world, and even though I knew not to look back, I did anyway and I suffered because of it.

My new friend prayed with me~ I cannot even begin to tell you the PEACE that just enveloped me with this. I am at a place where I feel so close to God and feel like His blessings are really being poured out on me. Glory to God for all of His GREATNESS!

Over the next few days, until I meet with my friend again, I have a task. While God's Grace and Forgiveness is poured out so long as we believe in His Son and invite His Son into our life... we are still held accountable for our words and actions both in this life and to God later (see Matthew 12:36)

My task will be to look at this stuff~ to bring it before God. It is a lot of work to address all of this. I know that if I am honest with myself and with God though, I am going to be in such an AMAZING place once I do this that the pain of going through this will be so far overshadowed by God's peace.... that Peace that surpaces all understanding...

Well thank you for reading along with me...